limbo

There's nothing to report for now.  My body is a mess as usual.

I gained 10 pounds with this last IVF and had been unable to lose it all summer.  Turns out my tsh was in the toilet and my insulin level was crazy.  As the put it "your metabolism is at a standstill"

I was in pain most of the summer because of the tsh level.  Horrible joint pain in every joint in my body, even my fingers, toes and elbows.  Endo said it could be from the gluten free diet or it could just be a result of the IVF. She's seen it happen before.

I've been switched from.112 of synthroid to .60 of armour (natural form from a pig instead of fake synthroid) and as of last week, the pain is significantly better, and I'm starting to lose weight but my tow tsh levels are still a mess.  One level apparently likes the high doses, the other level likes the low doses. So the bottom line is  I spent about $23, 000 on an  IVF package I may never get to finish using.

To make matters worse, my kids desperately want another sibling now. How did that happen?  They mention it quite often, like I'm not in enough emotional pain already.  Now I've let them down too.

Seems like all  I do these days is let people down. Like I said, not much to report right now.